The fight with self~criticism....again!

Here I go....a-freaking-gain. Just a few days ago I had a branding photo shoot with intention of one of the new pictures being 'perfect' for my book cover (Yes! B Undefined, the book is in the final stages before publishing....eeeek!).

In my current life I've mostly mastered checking in with my Higher Self to 'know'

(yes / no) if I should do / say something. This literally goes from how much coffee I drink in a day to what I wear to whether or not I eat something or say something. I pretty much live in yes / no land and that is how I make decisions, trusting my gut.

The photo shoot was actually a very last minute thing for an updated picture. I had a picture from last year picked out but since it has taken me a year to finally get to this stage with the book (that is for a whole-nother blog post) it was brought to my attention that I am no longer the same person, so although the picture from last year is beautiful, it represented me then, not now. So new pics it was. I planted the seed in the Universe and waited and it delivered a last minute Hey guys! Session with Ampersand right here in my home town. Being that it was last minute, I didn't prep for a specific outfit or anyone doing my makeup. I showed up with blouses I already owned, makeup & hair I do myself and I was simply going to be the best, most radiant version of me.

Cut to, my nails are two weeks grown out. My hair is 5 days shy of my next appointment, hashtag gray roots and scraggly ends, but I checked in with the Higher Self and she said, "girl, go rock it, this is you". Trustingly I showed up having done some light work and meditation that morning. The only difference was I used a smaller barrel curling iron to make the curls a slight bit tighter so they would last, otherwise, this is ME. All of me, in real time.

And I freaked out....